Hello! This afternoon after school, i met up with the track camp ppl to go Changi chalet take photo to show that we found the place! I was at my usual self, keeping quiet..... Wouldn't dare to mingle around.... I guess i am a person who takes a long time to get used to new faces..... Been like that since young... Partially due to how i was brought up and the influence of my brother's quiet self....
Sunny called me to ask me to join him for tuition.... With my ever-declining grades, i have to do something.... $120 for maths, $150 for chem..... It's too expensive.... Father is going to be retrenched soon.... Life is never gonna be the same again... I am quite worried that i won't be able to go for the March XP.... I was so in envy hearing what all the fisrt intake ppl talking about all the fun they had... I like to explore places.... See the clouds soar high about us... Feeling the gentle breeze on our skins... But no matter what, i would be prepared to use my own moneyfor the march XP, Maybe it could be my last XP, i hope not.... =|
Failing tests in JC level is so demoralisiing..... I did quite well in Sec school... NOw been promoted to Jc, I am demoralisied like shit.... My class has no class spirit.... Everyone is on their own.... I am been greatly influenced by that... There isn't any sense of belonging to the class... They wouldn't work together to strive for good grades or goals... All they do is to slack slack slack.... Sad..... Sometimes i wonder why did i choose to go to CJC... Is it because of 'her'? Maybe.. The other supporting reason why i choose CJC is ODAC... ODAC has helped me in a lot of ways.... It has taught me to be humble, not to complain so much and increased my comfort zone drastically... Ever since after the break up, I have lost my ability to 'Connect and Transfer'... I could concentrate for long period of time... Grades gradually plummeted.... My brain isn't the same as it was used to be....Most important of all i couldn't 'feel' it.... I couldn't feel with my heart anymore.... That was times that after i joined ODAC i has given me some side effects... Being too tired after training, I naturally couldn't concentrate.... Like a walking zombie.... Mindless when doing things, My brain became less 'nimble'... Memory decreased....
Now i have caused more burden to my father due to tuition fees.... I wonder why i couldn't work hard in the first place.... LAziness, procrastination are my bitter nemesis.... I hereby vow to overcome them , truefully obey the rules of goodness...... ANd solemnly vow to get into NUS... REMEMBER THIS!!!! IT'S YOUR GOAL!! WAKE UP!!!
Sunny called me to ask me to join him for tuition.... With my ever-declining grades, i have to do something.... $120 for maths, $150 for chem..... It's too expensive.... Father is going to be retrenched soon.... Life is never gonna be the same again... I am quite worried that i won't be able to go for the March XP.... I was so in envy hearing what all the fisrt intake ppl talking about all the fun they had... I like to explore places.... See the clouds soar high about us... Feeling the gentle breeze on our skins... But no matter what, i would be prepared to use my own moneyfor the march XP, Maybe it could be my last XP, i hope not.... =|
Failing tests in JC level is so demoralisiing..... I did quite well in Sec school... NOw been promoted to Jc, I am demoralisied like shit.... My class has no class spirit.... Everyone is on their own.... I am been greatly influenced by that... There isn't any sense of belonging to the class... They wouldn't work together to strive for good grades or goals... All they do is to slack slack slack.... Sad..... Sometimes i wonder why did i choose to go to CJC... Is it because of 'her'? Maybe.. The other supporting reason why i choose CJC is ODAC... ODAC has helped me in a lot of ways.... It has taught me to be humble, not to complain so much and increased my comfort zone drastically... Ever since after the break up, I have lost my ability to 'Connect and Transfer'... I could concentrate for long period of time... Grades gradually plummeted.... My brain isn't the same as it was used to be....Most important of all i couldn't 'feel' it.... I couldn't feel with my heart anymore.... That was times that after i joined ODAC i has given me some side effects... Being too tired after training, I naturally couldn't concentrate.... Like a walking zombie.... Mindless when doing things, My brain became less 'nimble'... Memory decreased....
Now i have caused more burden to my father due to tuition fees.... I wonder why i couldn't work hard in the first place.... LAziness, procrastination are my bitter nemesis.... I hereby vow to overcome them , truefully obey the rules of goodness...... ANd solemnly vow to get into NUS... REMEMBER THIS!!!! IT'S YOUR GOAL!! WAKE UP!!!
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10:53 PM
