The Wind is calling...

Candlelights hanging
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Another game of badminton. Another new racket. Another pair of shoes destroyed. Badminton is a destructive game. Lots of explosive moments that that bound to destroy your most trusty shoes. Period.

I was pretty in a light-hearted mood when strolling back home from the station after the game. I saw this couple practicing ball-room dancing at the big shelter for events. Pretty interesting =)

Then it reminded of what MJ said earlier in the evening. " Why do people fall in love? Why don't people don't fall into friendship? But they make friends?" Hmm, interesting thought. In my opinion, people 'fall' into love because it it just happen unknowingly. This attachment of love isn't premeditated. It 'just' happen. It's a mysterious phenomenon. Ooo...

Then, there was a breeze.

I love breezes. Especially at night. It feels so comforting, soothe the soul =P Just like the times when I was cycling late in the night. Alone, as usual. Since no one was interested in a little self torture in the most enjoyable way possible, I'm always cycling long distance by myself.

I got used to it after a while. Thanks to the windchill and night breeze. Hah... I got numbed by it. I kept on cycling into the night. The tiredness in the legs, the blurness in the mind, the thought of going home. Subarashi ne! Feels like i was reborn better and stronger after every long ride =) Testing limits of my body and mind....

The Wind is calling me....

Giant TCR Alliance TM

Giant TCR Alliance TM
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Bike porn! heh!

Well, it's about 2.4k. Fits nicely into my budget. I'll throw on a Crankbros Quattro and a nice spd shoe for it =)

It'll be one lovely ride in the holidays. I'll most prob start getting lost int he roads of Singapore again. Just gimme a call, i might pop up at your house on the bike =)

More to study tomorrow morning. How boring life can get when schoolwork interferes with it.... pfft! A balance must be sought.

Ananda, Tim, Me

Ananda, Tim, Me
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Here's the 3 of guys. I still can't produce a smile for a photoshoot. Someone need to make me laugh... So it's more natural... ha!

I found the bike i have been waiting for.. will talk about it more next time. So anyone wanna chip in for the "Road bike Fund"? I'll buy you a drink! Contributions must be $10 or above =P

So the saving begins...

Reflections in the rain...

Reflections....
Originally uploaded by Xepheiro.

I was stuck at the Wheelock's Starbucks for 4 hours. 5 maybe...

2 hours spent on studying gastro-intestinal tract. 2hours spent on looking around and doodling.

Lots of people were running in the ran. Some girls took off their flip flops and walked barefooted in the rain, sharing an umbrella with her friend. Occasionally tipping the umbrella to get a feel of the raindrops. Both giggled cheerfully.

Some braved the rain, enjoying it rather. Walking in the rain, they embraced every rain drop felt on the faces. Other ran for shelter at Starbucks. They sat down with a hot cup of coffee in their hands. The warmth spread throughout their body with every sip...

All these happened with i was stuck there, doodling life-like tree trunks and leaves on my doodle book. I still suck are water ripples...

I managed to meet Tim and Ananda for a bit when the rain slowed to a drizzle. They look so different. Tim was wearing a suit for his cousin's wedding later, Ananda had long hair, dyed brown. I could recognise him in the first place. Haha! Just a cup of tea and a little catching =)

Then it's rush back home to change for badminton at TPCC. It was still raining!

Blah, the rest is 2 hours of gruesome whacking. then here I am!

Good night and sleep dreams!

Zzzz...

Zzzz...
Originally uploaded by Xepheiro.

Hmm, tried sprinting with the new racer shoes i bought. Very light, nice grip. But only for sprinting..... Long distance will still be on that cross trainer.

I felt like flying with it. Seriously, i never thought sprinting was so much fun before! Hmm, i shall make a sprinting interval training every friday ^^

I'm broke. After the shoes of course. I won't be spending much on commodities anymore. No more taxis too. I need to save $2.5k for the bike. Hopefully i can get it during my holidays! sheer euphoria!

Think happy thoughts!

Haruhism!

Haruhism!
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I got a warning letter for missing 2 lessons. grr.... Got grilled by Dad. End of story.

Let's write something interesting today. Kolhberg's Theory on Moral development!

This guy thought of 3 levels of moral development in humans. And in these 4 levels, there are 6 stages!

Level 1 (Pre-conventional level)
In this, level of development, it usually happens to children.

Stage 1

Obedience and Punishment
- Act is percieved as morally wrong
- person who committed the act gets punished

Stage 2

What is it in for me? (One's own best interest)
- Little interest in the needs of others, just to further own interest
- not based on respect or loyalty

Level 2 (Conventional Level)
Happens in adolescents and adults

Stage 3
Individual enter society by filling social roles (Good boy/ Good girl concept)
- live up to expectations due to inherent value of being good
- judge morality of its values by evaluating its consequences
- respect gratitude, 'treat others as you like to be treated'
-reasoning

Stage 4
-Obey laws, dictum and social conventions
- values importance of maintaining a functioning society
- transcend individual needs
- go for central ideal to say right or wrong

Level 3 (Post-conventional)

Stage 5
-individual holding different views and opinion
- paramount to be respected and honored impartially
- no single choice is correct and absolute
- laws that don't promote general social welfare should be changed for 'Greatest good for the greatest numbe rof people'

Stage 6
- commitment to justice carries with it to disobey unjust laws
- one acts because it is right , not because it is instrumental, legal m expected or agreed upon


So have you thought of any experiences from young to now that this is how your mora; development is? Trial and error. Evolving to give to society. following its rules. Then to discover after the amount of experiences that there is no absolute from different point of views? Going against the rules because times have changed and it is irrelevant to current times?

i shalln't say that this is the correct version of his theory. This is a summarised version I got while researching on moral values for school work... And perhaps it has been misinterpreted by others or me. Oh well.... Haruhism rules! Any ESPers, space aliens or time travellers wanna come out to play and make a world full of fun with me? =P

Rose just for you

Rose just for you
Originally uploaded by Xepheiro.

"Gaining through losing" jap version by Ken Henrai is nice! The song which they always sing on that NKF show...

Back to school tomorrow! With 2 quizzes this week and a practical test next week. Can you tell how excited i am going back to school? Not all all.

Roses... Such a beautiful flower.... Its thorns gives it a bittersweet elegance to it....

hope the remaining Sem goes out well for the rest of us!

ODAC orientation!

ODAC orientation 2007 003
Originally uploaded by Xepheiro.

Lots of people! Lots of mud! Soap and everything nasty! Especially yellow noodles + flour + mud water + camo cream + tea powder down your head!

I didn't want to get dirty as i was going out later... So i can't get good close up shots. So i ran around a few places with my running nose...

Then, i fell into the small lokang on the slope... WTH.... bad karma. Really. Nothing broke, was still again to run and jump around taking shots. Just a few scratches.

Hmm, i have noticed that my language has been pretty screwed up recently. Past and present tenses are all jumbled up. Need to take note on that...

So in the end, i cancelled the night shot at night and rested at home under 3 layers of shirt, jacket and blanket... Cold, I was.... lying in bed... weak, throat cracking due to sorethroat... I can't even talk... everything i said was in whispers...

I like whispering! I find it difficult to talk sometimes... Seems like i need quite a bit of effort to talk. Physical difficulties? *shrugs*

I prefer to whisper.

Aww...come out!

Aww...come out!
Originally uploaded by Xepheiro.

The clinical stint at SGH is over! Back to school next week!

ODAC orientation is tomorrow. The same disgusting ritual that happens every year. I guess i'll pop by for a bit. 10th batch for this year i think! I was from the 5th. Heh... ODAC Alumni is getting bigger!

Well, being in ODAC had certainly made me stronger in lots of ways. Learned a lot of things. Picked up photography and the love for cycling. Went closer to nature. Broke my own personal barriers. Saw how the world looked like outside Singapore. Saw the fighting spirit of humanity....

Lots to ponder! I wonder how would i become if I wasn't in ODAC? I personally have very little drive.. I'll imagine myself probably be slacking in a corner playing games, rotting =P

Hope that tomorrow is fun ^^

Iphone

Iphone
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So they unveiled it. The Iphone.

While watching the introduction video, my bro and I were clapping and screaming about for this phone. The functions are all we ever needed! 3 pdas under my belt, none met the expectations i had. This phone just might be the one. Throw away the stylus, throw away the buttons. THROW AWAY YOUR PHONE! Iphone is all we need~!

More info here: http://www.apple.com/iphone/

Saving up for one in a year's time =) good luck.

Dreams !

Floraesscence
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Let talk about dreams.

Those imaginary dreams that you have since young. Like you dream that you can fly, walk through walls, live as a king with a fortune or a princess with prince charming. Yep, those imaginary stuff we had when we were kids. I had lots of those, like flying around, saving the world, being spiderman, being able to move things with our minds and such...

Sadly, reality grabs a hold of us when we grow older. We lose some of those dreams that we had. Yet, we create realistic ones as we go through life. Going through life, we gain the knowledge of what is obtainable and realistic. Childish dreams of flying being replaced by been a pilot of a plane. Then some of them boils down to getting rich, have a good life, do what we want in a real way.

Well, i have a few dreams. But i'm particularly intrigued by this one.

Wander around the world for eternity freely without restrictions. That's the imaginative version. I would like to fly around, looking at how people live and animals live. Be it in the middle of the earth of in the depths of the sea or how minute the organism can be. I wish i can be able to see everything on this planet.

Well then, so i grow up and get brainwashed by realism.

So now it's "I wanna earn money to travel around the world and take photos on my journeys!" With the current state of realism you have while reading is post, i believed you can picture what is needed to start this dream. Throw in all those restrictions like international conflict, currency exchange, wars, health problems and such matters. I'll most probably die halfway while realizing this dream.

Ooo... what big dreams i have! Perhaps i can go on after life, but i don't have enough information to support that.

Or i can start small. Get a bike cycle around Singapore, see places i have never gone to. Then overseas? heh... lots of ideas....

There WILL be obstacles. Hey, that's life for you! Too much complications we have implemented on ourselves. Passport, flying tickets... blah... MONEY!!! So money comes in again and turn most dreams into her direction.

How about a dream that won't go to that way to the money sign? Hmm... Perhaps when i sleep.... Feel free to comment! What are you most crazy dream you have ever thought of? Imagine and have fun!

Bro VS The Dog

Bro VS The Dog
Originally uploaded by Xepheiro.

Bro's birthday yesterday. Bought him a loving chocolate cake. Heh, we haven't had any cakes for the last 3-4 years on all our birthdays. This will be a change for a while.

Badminton yesterday was fun! Went to Bishan park after that to model for Rose's photo assignment. Cycled round and round . It's been a while since I cycled. All the memories came flooding back.... Riding in the rain... That's where it all began... The sweat... the pain... getting to

On a present note, I'm still so behind in collection competencies. "I'm 1x so DEAD"

me IpoD!

me IpoD!
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My Ipod has been having some seizures recently. I have to reset it 3 times on one week! Argh! I hope it can last me for another 1 year....

Spent $150 bucks at G2000! That's a lot! But then again, i like formal wear! So classy! Now i need new shoes to go with them. then bought a pair of bermudas at Seiyu bugis... That's how $300 bucks flew away in one day. Before i got my sponsorship, Mom keep telling me to save up. Now she's telling me to buy more clothes.... Why!!! grr...

Bro and me is pooling up for PS3! yay! More spending!

Sleep!

Turn it up

Turn it up
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What did i do when i don't have WoW to play? I tried drawing anime... I failed miserably... I'm a design person... I can draw abstract art, but not those kawaii anime girls! *sigh*

now i'm turned into a tracing sweatshop by MJ... lol... My first design would be up soon!

I need to get on my bike again... It's been raining for these few days... grr... Good night all!

It's time to let go....

Slippery balls
Originally uploaded by Xepheiro.

I've canceled my subscription for WoW. It ends on 5th March. I'm stopping WoW. I have decided....

It isn't an addiction to me. Lately it had just became a chore to play this game. Raiding is at 8am daily. I haven't had a morning sleep in for 6 months. All of it was spent on raiding in the morning. I gave up meeting friends to rollerblade, to cycle, to exercise. I grew fat as a result. I've have neglected my family too due to this game.

What made me wake up from this delusional dream was the night spent at MOS. I haven't had much to talk about as all i knew was WoW. Nothing much from the outside world. Then the rest kept talking about their experiences outside. About how fun or sad it was, how infuriating it was? How can i talk about the epic weapons and armor i got from MC compared to all that? Pixelated items VS real-life things that are slimly , evil, sweet smelling with a touch of class?

I sincerely apologize to all those that have been neglected for the past 6months, with 73hours of gameplay on that character 'Asuranwind'.
*Tears roll down a cheek and bows*

I shall start life renewed. First, with me getting back riding my faithful 'wife', my bike. Then get a new bike. And a first trip overseas for a photoshoot. Any one interested? Holidays are in March!

Keep your hands on the turntable!

Keep your hands on the turntable!
Originally uploaded by Xepheiro.

This was a candid shot by just shooting without aiming. Effects are pretty good. Lucky i guess!

A brand new year to begin with. ANy new year resolutions? Perhaps one. Get back to cycling. That would be good. Nice and simple.

My bio clockwork is in the chaotic situtation now. I can fall asleep at 9pm and then be up fresh at 1am. So i'll spend most of the night either tossing around thinking about stuff. Stuff like "How can the insignificant me in this family, in this build, in this neighboorhood, in this country, in this part of the world, in this solar system go on about life aimlessly?"

Yes, it's that so called goal searching thingy again. I don't crave for fame or money. I crave for something something higher on the triangle of needs. But what is it? I don't wish to go part to my apathic way... Imagine me just in bed not giving a damn about the world around me, no drive, nothing. For a whole month. Life was seeping out of my hollow shell. Mom was urging me to go do something. I still laid in bed... Staring at the ceiling. Seconds ticked by...hours... days.... Staring at the ceiling....

Until....

I woke up one day. And here i am. Aimlessly.