I was totally shagged this morning..... Had to rely on caffene..... argh....... by the mid afternoon i got used to the tireness..... hence they was a little brust of energy in me somehow..... Manz... I was so tired that i feel that i had to get out of my exhausted shell somehow...... Felt that my soul can just leave the body for a while..... ahhahah.... Crap.....

Shing Lam cried today over the relationship...... He bottled up all his feelings inside till he couldn't tolerate it allow more.... lucky Kenny was there to console him..... Haiz..... At least he managed to express his feelings.... not like me.... bottled all my feelings till i feel a bit emotion-less..... abit feeling-less..... haiz.... Things are improving though!!! bye gtg!!1

hello! yesterday there was war between Zheng Lun and Shing Lam over some girl prob.... haiz... dun noe lahz.......

yesterday got ODAc vertical challenge training..... Had to conserve my engry for the night studying of carbonyl test on fri....... plus the PE in the monday.... I was shagged.....

hello!!! ran 2.4km this morning... Sianz... not personal best..... Must be due to fatigue and lack or traINING..... Haiz.... Schoolwork is piling up and getting tired very easily.... sianz.....
hope that cca to stop soon.... now my mindset is set to studying mode..... last year was 30% studying.... now is 40% and increasing... haiz...... what am i going to do? I can't cope well if i am too tired... cos i can get anything inside my brain...... which = to no study = waste time...

Dilema sia.....

hello!!! Guess what ??? For the first time in my whole life till now i haven't been in a champion team in anything! Got 1st in the track camp!!! gheheheh!!!! Tension ~sheng ah!~!! muahahhaha! Fun sia track camp!! lucky they forgot about the story thingy... hahaha!!! Krux is damn strong... From being last in the beginning, and ended up second overall!!! Congrats everyone!!!!! It's doesn't matter who wins in the end, as long u have fun u are a winner!!!!!

Hahah..... listen to my new Utada Hikaru CD.... nice! bye gtg KO liaoz!!!

watch solarmax today!!! not that good..zzZZZ

hi!! tomolo going for track camp.... sian... dun wanna go........ anywayz..... gtg sleep.... bye

Today is Sai Fong's birhtday hahaha... got a cake to celebrate in class!

WAh today went to NAFA to see Hai han's exhibition... He's pics are good manz!!! Got style! Hahaha....
Had beancurd after that.... Then when going home got interogated by Eleanor by about Joyce.... Sianz..... Me and Joyce are just friends lohz..... Dun they understand? nvm....

YOZ!

I could log on yesterday due to some connection problems.... Yesterday we did the siao eco-challenge in ODAC.....
Kena sabo to team up with Joyce... ahha... whateva.... Wah she very the concentrated in running manz..... she won't say a word while running... always conc..... zai.... My group quite good sian!!! Got strong ones, fast ones, and all have initiative manz!!! ahahha!!! Kai Feng was pushing all the time. But he really got strong arms while carrying the madison balls nad the log! ahhaha!! May pushed to maintain with the speed and Adeline keep supporting each other.. Hahahah.... It was so fun!!! but tired! hahahahahahahah

hello!! stomache... argh!!! bye

hello!!! Today the mass PE was xiongz!! Edison whatz... what can u expect?!? Gave it all my best today!! Felt good about it!

Had my first private tuition today.... Just did Admin work with this guy from NUS Computer Science called Augustine... Funny guy... Not bad at the first tuition! Hope that he would make it interesting for us! Our saviour!!! hahahahha!
Thought that my MuVo was spoilt manz..... scary.....

guess what? i found the cause for my loss of concentration!!! IT's the continuous blasting of music!!!! argh.... Just that i thought that it would relax me.... hahaha... Now i noe the cause liaoz!! hehehe.... gotta listen to music moderately liaoz.....
bye gtg!

Morningz!! Still got Poisson distribution to piah... wah lauz....... yesterday couldn't sleep well manz.... must be the caffeine...... pepsi...... well gtg!

Yoz! Today i went to Pulau Ubin!! hahaha!!! !st time got quite a few cramps while cycling..... Slowed the whole group down.... haiz..... feel a bit guilty...
Well, if u are going to pulau ubin, u die die must buy the coconut there!!!! DAMN NICE!!!!~!~ Glad that Zhangyu gave Ranneth a chance to prove himself that he can take care of anothere member not so confident in cycling! It's kinda sad that they seldom give Ranneth chances to prove himself.... ahhaah!
Took quite a few shots today... Must practise more manz.....
gtg sort the pics out! laterz!

Couldn't make it to rD annversary today!! SOrry guys!!!

Hiz! I just donated blood this afternoon! One eye opener for me even though it was my second time! the nurse just lifted the needle horizontally and my skin was lifted up!!! AH!!!!! hahahah..... She puched the needle in somemore..... argh.,..,.,..

I felt a bit dizzy so i when home to KO..... Hahahaa..... when i woke up i told it was morning already.... and i thought i was late.... hahahah... stupid me...

bye! tomolo going pulau ubin!! hehehehe

Hehe... An hour nap works wonders!!!! hahaha... the only side effect is i cannot sleep now..... sianz..... hahaha.... Tomolo is St Valentine's day! ahhaha... Will be joining a singles group or maybe spend the whole day myself... hahaha.... anyway, Happy st Valentine's!!

hello..... I have got 2 test tomorrow... chinese and chem... looks like i have to scacrifice chinese.... again..... haiz.... Heard a sneak preview of my physics test... not very good! Duh~! Haiz... i have to treat myself of the 'mental-block-headedness'.......bye btb sleep for a while.....

hello! hahah... yesterday didn't log... my bro 'stole ' my comp.... haiz..... his stupid comp is damn lousy........... tiired man yesterday.... went out at 8am to do the track camp stuff... It's an holiday after all lohz.... Making me wake up so damn early during an holiday is a first for me loh...... hahah.. gtg

Hahaz.... I did my chem revision in the afternoon with andrew! e helped my clear up my understanding towards nucleophilic and electrophilic reactions! ahhaha!!! Going bankrupt soon.... Tomorrow got track camp meeting... sianz..... dun feel like going for the camp already.... i wanna study chem!!!!! bye gtg!

Hello! This afternoon after school, i met up with the track camp ppl to go Changi chalet take photo to show that we found the place! I was at my usual self, keeping quiet..... Wouldn't dare to mingle around.... I guess i am a person who takes a long time to get used to new faces..... Been like that since young... Partially due to how i was brought up and the influence of my brother's quiet self....

Sunny called me to ask me to join him for tuition.... With my ever-declining grades, i have to do something.... $120 for maths, $150 for chem..... It's too expensive.... Father is going to be retrenched soon.... Life is never gonna be the same again... I am quite worried that i won't be able to go for the March XP.... I was so in envy hearing what all the fisrt intake ppl talking about all the fun they had... I like to explore places.... See the clouds soar high about us... Feeling the gentle breeze on our skins... But no matter what, i would be prepared to use my own moneyfor the march XP, Maybe it could be my last XP, i hope not.... =|

Failing tests in JC level is so demoralisiing..... I did quite well in Sec school... NOw been promoted to Jc, I am demoralisied like shit.... My class has no class spirit.... Everyone is on their own.... I am been greatly influenced by that... There isn't any sense of belonging to the class... They wouldn't work together to strive for good grades or goals... All they do is to slack slack slack.... Sad..... Sometimes i wonder why did i choose to go to CJC... Is it because of 'her'? Maybe.. The other supporting reason why i choose CJC is ODAC... ODAC has helped me in a lot of ways.... It has taught me to be humble, not to complain so much and increased my comfort zone drastically... Ever since after the break up, I have lost my ability to 'Connect and Transfer'... I could concentrate for long period of time... Grades gradually plummeted.... My brain isn't the same as it was used to be....Most important of all i couldn't 'feel' it.... I couldn't feel with my heart anymore.... That was times that after i joined ODAC i has given me some side effects... Being too tired after training, I naturally couldn't concentrate.... Like a walking zombie.... Mindless when doing things, My brain became less 'nimble'... Memory decreased....

Now i have caused more burden to my father due to tuition fees.... I wonder why i couldn't work hard in the first place.... LAziness, procrastination are my bitter nemesis.... I hereby vow to overcome them , truefully obey the rules of goodness...... ANd solemnly vow to get into NUS... REMEMBER THIS!!!! IT'S YOUR GOAL!! WAKE UP!!!

Today my brother slept throughout the day.... I went over to andrew's house to reg for Ns... something wrong with my cookies.... Finally i can get to use avantgo!!!!! hahahahah!
Infomation over-saturation!!! hahaah!!!

Manz... Today piah physics till lan diao liaoz...... Now still ahve study maths or finish maths tutorial.... die liaoz..... Haiz.... gtg do now.......

haha... today ran 8km and 20 grandstands... a little tired.... slept from 3 to 7..... cool manz!!!! finally rest!!!!! hahaha! But gotta study for 2 tests on monday - physics and maths....

Wah... today is my first time go orchard for only an hour.... cos dun wanna spend $$.... save manz....

helloz! gotta make it short! Went to serangoon gardens today to eat the famous newton circus chay kway tiao! Damn nice!!! Long queue manz.... hahah.... guess who recommended it to us? Mr KB Ong.... hahahha amazing sia that guy.... must make him recommend more! hehehe.....
Dman tired liaoz.... gtg!

Wahh... tired... Right arm ache... left leg ache.... argh..... sleepz..... did Chinese essay till 1230 last night... longest i ever wrote... hahaha... gtg sleep liaoz......

Had hiccups early in the morning.... ahahha... first time manz...

Got mass pe today... xiongz......I was dead after the lesson...

Dozed off in all lectures except Eng and Chem.... Interesting whatz..... When i woke up everytime in maths lecture, the notes was in a mess.... hahaha

Had ODAC in the afternoon.... One after another..... Gonna faint one day due to exhaustion.... 5.2km run argh.... siao sioa starting pian with them... at the last few km got no strength..... Had my worst cramps ever..... top and calf muslcles of the left leg up cramped up.....could even more.... pain....... But it was an eye-opening exp for me!! hahaha.... Playing netball was a great!! new exp and cannot underestimate girls who played this game! It nees accuracy and skills to score... hahaha

Bye gtg....zzZZZZ DAMN BLOODY TIRED!!@!#!@$#~@~

hello! damn tired... hahaha... don't y..... still haven't eaten breakfast yet.... Wah... hungry...... Bye gtg

Cool! Just read the newspapers that red king crbs are swarming the beches at Kirkenes, Norway! They are marching all the way to portugal! Muahaha! So Cool! I wanna go there and take pics!! ARghhj1!!!! More than 12 million crabs!!!

All thanks to Stalin and his schemes!!!!

Just came back..zzZZ Feeling sleepy now cos my bro didn't off the noisy router after use.. kept me up al night

Slept during physics lecture......zzZZ wth....

When out to Orchard to eat luch.... dragged my feet along.... too sleepy....

wanted to buy National Geographic mag.... Kino dun have... Only the dec issue is availiable.... SLOW siaz.....
Bought a cute comic, damn ex.... $7.77... But the paper quality is damn good! Haven't read it yet... But the angel acts like my ex.... nvm.. Looks like i have to abandon chobits.... and move on with Shaman King or start Angelic Layer... Maybe selling Chobits to Wei Seng? haha...

Saw the Nokia 6610 selling for $268 with upgrade and $100 trade-in.... haha... Dun think my 8250 was worth $100 now... Somemore i will soon be going to NS soon... So why get a new phone now? cos by the time i get up... It's a super old model... hahaha.... Betta wait for 3Gs manz...

The queue at the cash deposit atm was so damn long.... Had to queue for 20mins.... Patience is a virtue.....
Hope that there will be more deposits than withdrawalz..... Hahaha...

Betta go bath now..... and train Kingdom hearts for one hour.....

Maths, chem tut tonitez.....

Yoz! Woke up early in the morning to call that sunny..... Got out today to meet Sunny, Eunice and Tab. I haven't met them for a long time! Kinda sad that Ting cannot make it... Argh.... Dua ppl one..... =(

Got forced to spend a minimum of $15 at Marche due to festive season..... Great chance to reap ppl off..... Had mushroom soup, grain roll, root beer, rosti with the damn bloody ex cheese sausage, the heavenly delicious fresh mang crepe topped with a scoop of vanilla ice cream and chocolate syrup! Yez... i spent a bomb.... $20 bucks!

Played pool at some ulu place in orchard.. not bad sia.. $5.80 per hour... Got teamed up with Eunice... ahhaa.... She just can't use a bit more strenght! haha... Can see that ahe seldom play pool.

I wanted to go inside the Istana todayz since i am in the area.... But it slipped off my mind when stepped into PS... Missed my chance again! Somemore i brought my digicam... argh....

I bought a cute fish bone key chain made of wires at Molecule@PS!!!!! ahha.... Gonna use it for the store key.... it keeps getting lost...

Kinda sad that Sunny will be mirgrating to Vancouver after NS....That's 3-4 years from now... First was Rita... Now him... Argh..... Sadz..... All bcoz singapore got not prospects in the future.... wth... It's always sad when a dear friend moves away to somewhere far.... Can't help it lah.....

I want to study aboard to get a change of the rigid and boring environment here.... Maybe i will get a chance... maybe not.... Watever....

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My relatives are coming to my house tomolo!!! argh!! gotta clean up!! hehe....

haha... sure is busy tomolo.... Supposed to got out with ODAC, let Andrew [Bloodsucker] come my house play PS2, go out and join Sunny, Eunice, YT, Tab for gathering, and my relatives are coming..... hahaha..... guess what's my choice? Go out with Sunny they all lah! Haven't meet up for quite a while... Wah that Meng Heng forcing me to go Yvonne's house for dinner.... Hmm... i would keep that in mind...

Played Kingdom Hearts when i cam back..... Cool! Got a new weapon, Jungle key chain! and new spells!! ahhahaha!! Upgraded my Gummi ship to look like a battle crusier! Man the game is so damn cool!

Follow Your dreams man!!!!!

Waah!! Felt like my whole day was wasted.... Just stoning at my aunt's house doing nothing...... But i got better when i play with my CCC cousins. Charlotte, Charmine, Charline.... hahaha.... Had fun folding cars for them if u noe what i mean...

Went to river hong bao in the evening.... It was raining the whole evening.... I had to protect my clie like a baby to it's mother.... hahah... Nothing much to see..... Manz.... i always couldn't get to eat any unique delicacies from overseas.... argh.... nvm....

Hehe... Counted the hong baoz..... not bad for one day! ahhaha! all these goes to my niew phone.... if mom allows, that is... gtg sleepz..... gotta blog in the morning... hehehe... it's an addiction manz..... ciao!~!

Argh!! I can't customise my blog!! can't change the background colour...... Help....... [Bangs head on wall]

Haiz...... I want to play Kingdoms Hearts!!!! argh!!! my bro wanna sleep and the PS2 is in his room... nvm....
Kingdom hearts is so damn nice to play!!!! hahhaa.... I still haven't got over disney characters.... ya ya..... I shouldn't be think about them now... but they are one of my favourite cartoon characters loh..... wth....
haiz.... i missed Destiny island... That place is so damn beautiful and peaceful...... It's paradise lah...... I dreamt of living near the beach and ocean.... see the sun rise and set everyday..... Let the warm orange sun soothe my soul as i am under torture in this era.... Everything here in SG is so damn heretic..... Stress.... Living in boxes... i see square everyday..... I JUST WANT THE SEA AND BEACH AND SUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guess i have to work hard for it .... preparing for retirement so soon.... hehehehhe..... slacker... CAn't blame me!!! Who ask me to be so attracted to the beach?

Hello! back again after the shower..... The water's damn cold.... Heater's slow to heat up the H2O.... Argh.... gonna drag my time till 2am... em i think there's an error in the time.... it's 1.119am now.... gotta correct it soon...
Will be going to my aunt's house on my dad's side.... And it will be so 'FUN'....... hahhahaha.... lucky there'z my clie to save me!!!

Hehe.... My first blog!! Muahahha.... Internet does wonders these days. Maybe i am too slow... haha..
Well it's the 1st day of chinese new year today... erm.. well actually 1 feb 2003....
Got quite a few 'hong baoZ'! hehe! Gotta save up for my new phone!!! haiz.... still dun noe which model to get....
Watch the 9.45pm 'Shanghai Knights' show at Sun plaza....
Damn nice! hehe... Especially Fann Wong licking Owen Wilson..... hehehe.... first time to see her do that! hahha.... Well, that's all! BatH and Sleepzzzz.....